All of my classes have me completely overwhelmed right now, and that'll be the case till it's all over. I'm in a position where it's seems as though there just isn't enough time for anything. I have hardly anytime to reshoot, to see other work, to pursue outside interests, nothing. It's not cool, I feel like I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown. I'm juggling various projects, for four different classes, and I still have more on top of that, so I'm just going to say it, this fucking sucks. It's as though I don't even know who I am right now. I feel like I'm on autopilot, no control, just zooming towards some unknown final destination, with the fear that at any second, everything could just explode spontaneously into some large ball of fiery debris.
On the other hand, with so much on the table right now, I'm getting a bit more clear as to what my process is, what kind of work I want to pursue, what's valuable to me and what isn't in terms of content. Despite being completely overwhelmed, I'm glad to have explored so much this semester, even if it comes at great cost to my well-being.
Project wise, things are coming along, slowly, but they're coming along, even though I'm totally on the fence about how I feel about this project, but like I said I glad to be exploring.
yea yea truly!
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